I Wait for You.......

My decision is already made
A product of my heart’s desire and my mind’s thoughts,
I have assembled a wish list and filled it
And it is you.

Feeling, touching, holding you every waking hour
In my imagination.
Knowing that reality is probably
A million miles away.

Longing for a closeness to you
A togetherness you have had before
Violated by the unkind, uncaring, hateful
Actions of the one you shared it with.

Longing for love from you
Love I have never known
Love that is painfully remembered by you
From another woman.

Feeling distance building between us
Fearing that you are letting me go
Yet, loving you enough, my darling
To tell you “it’s alright to say goodbye”.

Patient and kind, Caring and loving,
Words used by others , To describe me.
Descriptions that have no meaning,
If they are not used by you.

I have no way to convince you
That I could be a person to love.
I can only sit here, powerless,
And hope you find out for yourself.

Find out, and realize deep in your heart
That something is missing in your life
And somebody is waiting to share it with you
And the void can be filled.

And so, as I grow older each day,
And live and laugh and learn
I pray that, somehow, you will come back to me
And pull me close into your arms.

And so, I wait for you.