Showing posts with label caring. Show all posts
Showing posts with label caring. Show all posts

Tuesday, February 8, 2011

White Picket Fence....

I only lived in one house that had a white picket fence, and it was when I was very small. Doesn't matter, it isn't the fence I miss, it's the symbolism. The times. The way of life. The simplicity of every day.

I want it back.....

I know, I know. Impossible, you say. It was such a small window of time: the war was over and the troops had returned home. Korea was on some other planet, perhaps. Life in small-town America was coming together again.

In the summer, the grass was greener, the trees were bigger (really) and the fruit and vegetables were abundant. I had no idea how much money my daddy made and I didn't care: we had enough to eat. And my mother made sure I had flouncy, frilly dresses to wear. Too many dresses: I preferred my overalls. I never got in trouble for getting my overalls dirty....

Life was home and family, friends, school and church. A HUGE treat, once a month or so, was to go out to dinner. My older brother hated it: we had to share a dinner and I always got to choose and I always chose fried chicken.

We stood in class, in the morning, and said the Pledge of Allegiance. With gusto, mostly. We knew our fathers had gone off to the war and fought hard and kept our freedom safe. We didn't know where, or how, but we knew they were heroes.

We had one car and Daddy drove it to work. If my mother wanted to use the car, she had to take Daddy to work in the morning. If it was raining, she might drop us off at school but mostly, we walked to school, rain or shine.

And when it did rain, we took our roller skates to school. During recess, we were allowed to skate on the walkways outside our classrooms. Teachers were posted at the corners to slow us down, if we were going too fast. And if someone got hurt, there was a nurse in the school office.

I knew every kid in the neighborhood. Played with the ones who were close to my age. We ran all over the neighborhood, barefooted, all summer long. We didn't have to go home until our mothers called us and then we hurried home. For supper.

My mother wore an apron when she cooked. All our meals happened at the dining room table. My brothers on one side, me on the other, and my parents at each end of the table. I didn't have to have a sibling “elbowing” me when I ate. I had something worse: when the telephone rang, I had to answer it, since my chair was right next to the phone table.

On summer nights, we sat outside, on the patio, and talked or read or played games. The windows were open so we could hear the radio and the tunes wafting out the window on the summer breeze. Sometimes, we listened to music, sometimes to news, and sometimes to a program like “The Lone Ranger.”

When we finally got a television, we were only allowed to watch it for an hour a day: “it'll ruin your eyes!” My mother said that constantly. My parents chose the program and, if we were interested, we watched it, too.

I could go on and on, but it's futile. The memories will have to sustain me. Thomas Wolfe was right: we can't go home again....



Thursday, March 4, 2010

Another Day...

The day is ending
Night is falling
Life comes
To its sweet repose.

So many plans
So much to do
Now must wait
For another dawn.

Life is like that
A daily series
Of things to do
And experiences.

No need to audit
Or count the goals
Both met and left
For another day.

The joy is in
The experiences
Just to be
And see and feel.

When the day is over
And night has come
Sweet sleep prepares us
For another chance.

Another day
Another cycle
Adding to the joys
Of a simple life.

Thursday, January 21, 2010

Drops of Time

Little drops of time
Falling on my face,
Taking away my Youth,
Leaving wrinkles in its place.

Little drops of time
Falling from above
Took away the loneliness,
And brought me Love.

Little drops of Love,
Falling on my face,
Take away the pain and leave
A smile in its place.

Little drops of Love,
Fill my heart, every day
Taking away the emptiness,
And make me want to play.

Little drops of Laughter
Falling from the sky,
Take away the heartache
And let me fly.

Little drops of Joy,
Falling on my face,
Bring a sense of peace
To this Happy Place.

Saturday, January 2, 2010

Quiet Glory...

Another day has happened...
Another day is coming to a close.
Did things happen the way I wanted?
Did events occur just as I chose?

If I could go back through my life
And edit out the things I should,
Would I still be who I am today,
If I achieved all the things I could?

Or would I be someone else?
Living life in a different space?
Would that other me be the same?
Or have the same voice and face?

Would I still have the happiness
That has found me at long last?
Or would I live sorrowfully,
Defeated by the life that passed?

I guess it doesn't matter
Where I think I might have been,
For I know that it is gone,
I shall never pass this way again.

And so I count my blessings
My memories, gather round.
And for whatever reasons,
Rejoice in the joy I have found.

If life is a tangled journey,
From birth to wherever we are,
I'm glad I made my own path,
And followed my own star.

As my day and my life are ending,
And I'm nearer the end of the story,
I'm thankful for the opportunity,
To live in my own, quiet glory.

Monday, December 21, 2009

Memories....A Poem...

Life seems to be such a quandary....
Living somewhere besides where I want to be.
Spending my time in memories of the past
Why is it only the memories that last?

Life is happening all around
But, in the past, is where I'm found.
Life is so precious Life is so dear
Why can't I live right now, right here?

Why do I feel so all alone?
Togetherness is what my memories have shown.
People I love People so near
Being together brings love and good cheer.

So I'll hold close, my memories, and then
Go forward, to my future and leave where I've been.
My memories, so precious, with all the strength they give,
Here and now is where I am; and here and now, is where I'll live.

Rich, layered memories of seasons past...
Live beside moments that are passing too fast.
With memories of the past and those folks I hold dear,
I'll live in the moment and be of good cheer.

For tomorrow will come before we know...
Today's memories will linger like new-fallen snow.
So pretty, so ethereal, so white and so cold.
Now passes too fast and soon, I'll be old.

Gathering my memories, and these fresh moments, too
I am moving forward....heading, always, toward you.
Memories from the past, precious moments in time
Past, present and future, in our love, entwined.

Thursday, December 17, 2009

The Christmas Tree, a Poem...

Covered in tinsel and icicles, too
Baubles in gold and silver and white
Spirals and stars and pear shapes,
Crowned with a star and twinkling lights.

Tall and straight and evergreen,
Reaching for heaven, or at least the sky,
Bows bending, under the weight
And presents beneath, piled high.

No matter the type, or shape of the tree
Even the lowly, Charlie Brown kind,
Covered in baubles and lovely things
Becomes the best that you will find.

Presents, not fancy, but lovingly done,
Under the tree in bright colored paper,
Heighten the excitement, increase the tension,
Each contains a moment to savor.

Gathered around the family tree,
Remembering so many Christmases past,
Thinking that this one is even more special,
Hoping the memories made will last.

The Christmas Tree, so beautiful,
Decorated now for all to see...
May yours bring you holiday cheer,
And may you always, blessed be.

Wednesday, November 25, 2009

Life Goes On...

Comforting words,
Spoken with glee..
A spectacular sunset,
For all to see.

Laughter from the
The next room,
Chases away
Any sense of gloom.

Lives touched
No longer forlorn
Mended hearts
New joy is borne.

Gently blowing
Breezes calm..
The sun provides
A soothing balm.

Life goes on
Day by day,
Love conquers all
And is here to stay.

Thursday, November 19, 2009

Your Turn to Bloom..

Open up, Bright Flower
Don't start to fade...
It's your turn to bloom
Your dues are paid.

The good times are coming
The bad times are past
It's your turn to bloom,
And be happy, at last.

Though wrongs are not righted,
And justice is not done,
It's your turn to bloom,
And have some fun.

The chores are finished,
The children are grown,
It's your turn to bloom,
Your way will be shown.

Life has moved on
You've rounded the bend,
It's your turn to bloom,
And bloom till the end.

Sweet sunset is coming,
Then the darkness before dawn,
It's your turn to bloom,
Before it's all gone.

Wednesday, November 4, 2009

Harvest Moon

I looked eastward, into the darkening dusk
And saw above me, in the big, dark sky..
A perfect sphere, adorned with a face
White and glowing as it rose so high.

The contrast between the dark blue sky
And the milky white of the harvest moon,
Caught me unaware, on this crisp, fall night..
Not expecting the darkness to fall so soon.

And there, so suddenly, hovering over us,
The eucalyptus trees all standing in a row..
Standing there, in awe, with me...
As the moon put on its evening show.

Rising slowly in a cloudless sky,
Meant for lovers to sit and share...
And watch, in awe as its majesty..
Blankets the earth with its gentle glare...

The harvest moon, in a crisp fall sky..
Leaves have fallen and winter's on its way,
Seasons changing once again...
And life is more barren with each new day.

Summer's gone, with its riot of colors..
Verdant green pastures give way to fall..
And soon winter's cold wind will blow,
Dead leaves buried, snow covers it all..

And above us all, on this special night..
Presiding majestically over the time of rest,
Hangs the beautiful harvest moon,
Making this time of year the best..

Sunday, November 1, 2009

Sweet Child O'Mine..

Precious Little Child, Sweet Child O'Mine..
Your eyes twinkle like the stars that shine..
The inner beauty that shows in your face,
Is borne of the joy that is your grace...

Alive and living and learning so many things..
The sound of your voice gives my heart wings.
I was there for your birth, Sweet Child O'Mine,
I was there for your birth, an event so divine.

How fast you've grown, and gotten so tall,
It's hard to remember when you were just small.
You learn so quickly, and you love so well,
Beauty so bewitching, you cast a spell...

Living so sweetly, and now out of my dreams,
And into real life, so very busy, it seems.
How can I touch you, what words will you hear?
What secret password will gain me entrance to your sphere?

How lovely the light, that glows in your soul,
And when we are together, the days, so full..
Guided by love and light and life and reasons...
We relish each day, and all of the seasons.

How I cherish the memories of your sweet baby days,
Even as I watch you growing, in my loving gaze...
Taller and prettier and kind and loving as can be,
You'll always be my Baby Noelle-y to me!

Saturday, October 24, 2009

Night Sky...

Tiny little stars...
In the dark night sky
Looking down on me,
And I wonder why.

Things seem to happen
Just the way they do..
You found me,
And I found you.

Slowly friendship grows
And walls break down.
Smiles come over me
And replace my frown.

Things that used to scare me
Are no big deal...
Places that were a fantasy
Now seem quite real.

Life has a way of turning
Down ne'er-traveled roads,
Familiar places give way,
To new and comforting abodes.

Hearts long ago grown weary,
And afraid to love,
Look up in the night sky
And see the stars above.

Sunday, September 27, 2009

A House Full of Boys..

Today I’m celebrating
One of life’s special joys:
Saturday afternoon…
And a house full of boys!

College football on TV
Little one throwing the ball
“World of Warcraft” too…
I’m enjoying it all!

Kettle corn on the floor
And ground in the rug
A boy walks by me
And gives Grandma a hug.

Fingerprints on the table,
Red and sticky, mark the spot,
Where the little one sat,
His quesadilla was too hot.

Pillows from the sofa,
Scattered around on the floor,
Long-legged boys watching football
Come in slamming the door.

Two go outside
To throw the ball
Two still inside,
And I’m watching it all.

The house, so empty
On so many days,
Seems suited to boys
In so many ways.

Plenty of space
To spread out and play
Plenty of things
To move out of the way.

Good boys they all are
Even though strong-willed,
Keep them busy and happy
Give ‘em Legos to build.

And when it’s all over
And they must go…
I hope they remember
Grandma loves them so!

Tuesday, September 22, 2009

Constant Sorrow...

Forgive me, I’m not
A woman of constant sorrow.
I count my blessings
Each new tomorrow.

It’s not that I haven’t
Felt tremendous pain,
It’s just that thinking of it
Gives me nothing to gain.

I know our world
Is full of great trouble
And I’m not ignoring it
Or living in a bubble.

I have my thoughts
And I have my fears
I’ve cried my fair share
Of heart-wrenching tears.

But I always get up
And seek out the sun
The rainclouds have left,
And a new day’s begun.

There is no joy
In remembering my woes,
Or sharing my suffering
Or counting my foes.

There is joy is to be had
In each new dawning day
And Faith, Hope and Trust
Guide me on my way.

Wednesday, September 16, 2009

Pets...

Furry bodies,
Precious faces.
I always found them
In the strangest places.

Shivering in fright,
With looks so pleading..
A warm place to live
Was all they were needing.

No money to pay,
For their room and board,
Unconditional love
Is its own reward.

Funny and curious,
Adventurous and bright,
Why do they always
Want to play at night?

Always content to be
Curled up in my lap,
Safe and sound
And taking a nap.

“Who wants a cookie?
Wag your tail if you do.”
To others, I’m a nurse,
But I’m “mom” to you!

Thursday, September 10, 2009

Heroes

The alarm was sounded. Without hesitation, they went into action

Habits, ingrained through real life trauma and practice drills, took over

Thoughts were of the needs of others, always

Code 3 to the scene: lights and sirens onward to meet the tragedy

Horrified by the sights that greeted them, but not missing a step

Pulling turnouts up, grabbing equipment, heading without hesitation

To greet the grim scene, head on, fearlessly

Passing fleeing civilians: coughing, dazed, bleeding, crying

Up the down staircase, rushing past those who were seeking safety

Into the darkness and uncertainty, pushing forward, searching

Calling out to victims, survivors, the frightened, cowering humanity

Awakened forever from any sense of complacency

Black smoke, burning jet fuel, screams, crashing walls and cinders

Nothing stopped their upward trek, seeking those who needed their help

Reaching, touching horrified humanity, screaming in fright and pain

“I’m here, I’ll help you!” A joyous sound in the midst of a nightmare

Flashlights illuminating unbelievable destruction and painful death

Heroes, searching desperately for survivors in the midst of the rubble.

Thunderous sounds of crashing architecture, dropping like thrown powder

On top of itself, dropping, dropping, dropping until it reached

Ground Zero.

Monday, September 7, 2009

Happy Birthday....

Happy Birthday....

September is here again, with the bittersweet memories attached. My mother was born in September, and died in September, two weeks after her 65th birthday....

She was a one-of-a-kind, my mother. I have never met anyone quite like her. She was intelligent, beautiful, and creative, and yet, lost and sad at the same time. She loved photograpy and took most of the pictures of me that are on my profile page.

She came from a tragic family, and that tragedy shaped her choices for the rest of her life. She wanted to be surrounded by beauty,and so she planted roses and other flowers. She shunned the darkness and tried to live in the sunlight. She loved musicals, she loved to read, and she loved to travel.

I think about her often and I talk to her, too. I wear her engagement ring on a chain around my neck. It is amazing how many people have asked me about that ring, and what it means. And maybe this poem, that I wrote this morning in a fit of tears, will explain..

I wish I had the notes you once wrote,
But you’ll be around forever.
I wish I could remember how you smelled,
But you’ll be around forever.
I wish I could touch that soft dress you wore,
But you’ll be around forever.
I wish I’d said “I love you” more…
But you’ll be around forever.

I wish I had listened more closely,
When you talked about your hopes and dreams,
But you’ll be around forever.
I wish I had a recording of your voice,
With the soft, lilting way you said your words,
But you’ll be around forever.
I wish I could brush your hair again,
And place it in a cascading pile
On top of your perfectly-shaped head
But you’ll be around forever.

I wish I had said the things I wanted to say,
And told you what you needed to hear.
I wish I had gotten in your face,
And defied you, just for once
So you would know that I am strong
And that my heart cannot be swayed
And that my courage will prevail…
But I was wrong and didn’t know it then…
You could not be around forever!

Happy Birthday, Momby!

Sunday, August 30, 2009

Today...

The sun is setting
Yet the twilight lingers..
Another day
Slips through my fingers.

Another day of life
On my tab, mounts
Did I choose
Something that counts?

Did I accomplish
Something brave or bold?
Is there another story
That I have told?

Is this world
A better place?
Did I put a smile
On someone’s face?

Of the countless things
I wanted to do…
Did any get done?
Did I follow through?

Did I tell those I love
What they mean to me?
Did I paint a picture
For them to see?

Did I finish things
Already started?
Did I share kind thoughts
Before friends departed?

Have I done
What’s needed today?
Have I said
What I needed to say?

And now, at last
As this day is done
I think I’ll go watch
The setting sun.

Friday, August 21, 2009

Ordinary...

Ordinary people
Leading ordinary lives.
Ordinary husbands,
Married to ordinary wives.

Ordinary children,
Go to ordinary schools.
Ordinary families,
Follow ordinary rules.

And in an ordinary world,
Filled with ordinary stores,
Ordinary living has ruined,
Our mountains, trees and shores.

Ordinary use
Of ordinary things,
Extraordinary abuse
Of all natural things.

Unless we stop the cycle,
Of ordinary living,
The bounty of the land,
Will no longer be giving.

The ordinary things,
That we ordinarily see,
Will, in extraordinary fashion,
Forever cease to be.

And so, no longer ordinary,
We must do things differently,
And take extraordinary measures,
To save all that we see.

Ordinary rivers, and ordinary hills,
Ordinary oceans and ordinary trees,
Will become extraordinarily extinct,
If we continue doing as we please.

Tuesday, July 28, 2009

My Life...

A hundred thousand people,
Through my life have marched.
Some assuaged my thirst,
And some left me parched.

All have left their mark,
On my soul, in some strange way,
Some by their actions,
Others by what they say.

The ones I felt drawn to,
Those who meant the most,
Have always been the humble ones,
Not given to ever boast.

Some have told me lies,
And hurt me, or made me mad.
But all in all, the goodness,
Far outweighs the bad.

Those who share my joy
At dancing in the rain,
Are the ones who are always
Welcome to come back again.

Friday, July 24, 2009

Lemonade...

I’ve been here and I‘ve been there
In and out and everywhere
Up sometimes, and then, down too.
Sometimes red and sometimes blue.

I’ve had the urge to scream and shout,
I’ve stuck out my lip and tried to pout.
I’ve folded my arms across my chest,
And told my kids: “Mom knows best.”

I’ve lived through things that were a test,
And always paid my dues—with interest.
Took up the gauntlet, and fought the fight,
Tried to always do whatever was right.

Turned my cheek, gave life another chance,
Went out in the rain and smiled and danced.
Whistled a happy tune when I was scared,
Offered thanks for all the blessings I shared.

Tried to just put one foot in front of the other,
And set a good example, since I was the mother.
Smiled at the good, cried through all the sorrows,
And always hoped for much better tomorrows.

And somehow, in going from here to there,
In and out and everywhere..
I’ve been lucky: on a steady course I’ve stayed,
When life hands me lemons, I make lemonade.