There are two forms of solitude:
One is loneliness, an unfortunate state,
And aloneness, which is chosen.
Loneliness leads to isolation and despair
Aloneness provides a time for repair.
Making choices that preserve my sense of self
Is not the same as being abandoned by another.
Sometimes abandonment is accidental
And my someone did not want to leave.
Other times, it is done with a purpose
Either way, it causes me to grieve.
Is it harder to grieve the loss of someone
Who did not want to go away?
Or is the pain more palpable when
The other is still living and just decided to stray?
Can the difference between the types
Of solitude be measured or judged?
Can aloneness provide comfort
That loneliness can’t?
Is there any joy to be had in finding out
That the choice to abandon me was calculated
To cause maximum grief on my part?
There is no joy in loneliness but
There can be great joy in mastering aloneness.
Learning to be comfortable with myself;
Leisurely learning what makes me tick.
Testing my strength and endurance
By placing me in the thick of it.
Having the time, in my aloneness,
To come to the realization:
I know who I am, I know where I’m going
And I know what it is that I want.
In my aloneness, through introspection
Deep in my heart of hearts,
I find that the Whole of me,
Is greater than my Parts.
And when I am in this place,
Looking carefully at my needs,
Sometimes I see that the Sum of me
Is made up of good deeds.
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